K-On! Monday! 63

WE'RE BACK!

Thats right, University is back in swing today. Though I only have three lectures, kill me, and I left early. It was a good day. I'll talk about it more tomorrow, so stay tuned.

It's also K-On! Monday! Let's get right into it!

Ritsu!

Back in K-On! Monday! 50 I showed off a Yui movie stand, and this my Ritsu one! Not much else to explain to be honest. You can check out that other post for more details. 

Just quickly before I go, I started my next Japanese unit today. As apart of it, I'm doing a weekly blog in Japanese. So that might end up on here along with the rest of the stuff I do. I'll find out more tomorrow.

Thats it, have a good week

See ya

Summer Storms

Today's storm came out of nowhere, one moment it was the middle of summer and next it was like July. I live in the southern hemisphere. This left with some free time to think again. I've been coming back to the same discussion on Autism I've had since 2023, mainly how people view it and don't treat it with the seriousness that I think it requires. Mostly people who get their information from tiktok probably.  I tried to articulate it here last year but couldn't really get it out, but I've had a breakthrough. 

You see, it started at the end of last year, when I first went out with that girl. Now, I don't want to talk crap behind anyone's back, so I'll make this brief. But the way they spoke about disabilities, not just autism, was really disheartening. It opened my eyes up to how some people think about it, how they just use disabilities as an extension of themselves. Which I believe negates the real damaging effects of these disabilities. 

You all know what I mean, it doesn't take much to find someone with this outlook on life. They brag about their disabilities like it's nothing. Now, this has always annoyed and upset me, and I think I have finally understood why.

For most of my life, autism has been a part of my life in a big way. It has defined me. Shaped my entire life. So to me, it's just another part of me. While for a lot of these people, they seek it out to help understand themselves. They read online about the traits autism or ADHD has, and then apply that to themselves. They actively sought out this, wanted it, usually at an older age too. That's why they act the way they do, they needed this for themselves. While I was told I had autism at a young age, and has only negatively affected my life. I was tasked out of classes, had social problems, and mental health issues. 

Now I don't doubt that these other people haven't had the same issues as me, or even doubling their disabilities. But what I wanted to complain about is how I'm uniquely upset by this honestly little problem.  I just wanted to talk about the difference in thought between two different types of people. 

See ya 

I don't want people to get upset by this

I don't mean any harm by it

K-On! Monday 62

 Alright let's do this,

Welcome back to K-On! Monday 62!!! 

I've been thinking about what I could do to spice these posts up, so this week is part one of two. Of what you ask? Well, it's time to take a look at what happens after K-On! K-On! College to be specific, with university starting up next week I thought it was the best time to take a look at it. So this week I'll show off the book itself, and then next week I give my thoughts on it. To be honest I haven't read it yet, I know fake fan. 

Front Cover!

The back! With some new characters

Then the book itself.

From my basic understanding of this book, it's basically K-On! but with three new characters. Not too much difference from the rest of the manga. I'm looking forward to seeing the characters again but older, and the same age as me too. I'll talk about it next week 

See ya

K-On! Monday! 61

 HELLO ALL WELCOME BACK TO K-ON! MONDAY!

Today we're going to take another K-On! cd. This week is also a follow up the K-On! Monday XV. Back then I showed off a sheet music book containing the songs Go! Go! Manic and Listen!! 

Here is the front cover

The inside...

and the back

As I said back then, Go! Go! Manic is my favorie K-On! OP. I can't tell why, its just the pace and temp of the song. Along with the OP itself is fantastic. 

Intrestingly, this is a backing CD for that book. So it includes instumentals of both of the songs. Plus it has versions with each one of the instuments. So that you can play along with the other chracters. I really want to learn how to play drums, but I honestly dont have the time right now. 

Anyway that should be all for now

See ya

Losing myself

When I was in Japan, I had another big thought. It happened when I got back to Tokyo, though I think it had been brewing for a while before that. It kinda came together on my walk to my hotel from the station, it's also the reason I took that visit to Animate in Ikebukuro. 

What I am trying to say is that I think I'm losing who I am again. To expand, I think that I'm changing again. If you take a look back at some of the posts in 2023 I talked a bit about this idea, the idea that we are all constantly changing people. The person who created this blog would eventually cease to exist, and a new person would come about. The person who was depressed in 2023 was led to K-On! and other Kyoani stuff to find confit. That person who was trying to find something, that directionless person That person who wrote all these posts would just go away. 

Well, I've been noticing this slow change again over the last few months. I think it started with my developments just before my 20th birthday, I talked about it in Ordinary Life. To be frank too, with that title, I always intended it to be a turning point not only on this blog but hopefully in my life too. Coming to understand my place within the world really helped me out, I guess that's also part of growing up. 

I think I've also come to this conclusion because I'm not watching as much anime as I once did. For instance, I'm watching K-On! right now, but it's the first time watching anime in weeks. I just don't have the time, or to be honest, the desire to watch it. 

In the last few months, I've also become much more sociable. I go out with people much more often, Labor people, my old school friends, and I made lots of new friends in Kobe too. Not to mention that I've finally started dating. Well trying to at least, and you know it did work well. 

All this development has me feeling that I'm just losing a bit of myself, maybe it's the last bit of my childhood I had left. I can't really explain it, it's just I know that I can't act the same way I did before. Being depressed all the time, longing for something far away, retreating into myself. I can't do that anymore. It's a bit sad, but exciting too. 

I wanna keep growing but keep parts of myself that I like, I think that's what I need to work on this year. Like this blog, anime, games. But not forgetting about all my responsibilities. That is what real growth is I think, understanding that it's time to grow up, but not forgetting what made me who I am. No matter what happens I was always this person on this blog, and I can't forget that. 

Still, though, it feels like I'm coming to the end of a chapter of my life, I have a clear direction for what I want in the future, a good social life, and I'm in the best mental state I've ever been in. That is why I took that trip to Ikebukuro Animate, it just felt right to see it. Something That I've mentioned back on my first Japan trip. I can't say why, but it was right to see something that I wanted to see from that era of my life. 

Sorry for my rambles, I hope it all made sense.

See ya

I hate Sundays because it means that

I have stuff to do tomorrow.

K-On! Monday! 60

 Hello all, welcome back to K-On! Monday!

Today we have the last thing I got from my Japan study trip.

Azuza!

One of those towel posters!

I found it when I was visiting that 10-story Animate store in Ikebukuro, Tokyo. If you're a keen reader of this blog you'll remember that I mentioned it back before my first trip to Japan, HERE

Anyway, across the road is a Suruga-ya so I got it from there. I was kinda disappointed that I missed buying a different version, I went out the store and walked somewhere else before buying it. But that doesn't matter, it gives me more stuff to find. I still need to find a Mugi plushe, one day. Sorry Mugi.

Oh, it's not K-On! related but I got this new keyboard in Akibraha and man. It's just too good. It's a Realforce if you know anything about keyboards then I hope you know what that brand is like. If you're normal like the rest of us, it's a Japanese-made brand that builds the best keyboards I've ever used. All I know is that the keys are weighted 45g? and uses topre switches? I don't really know that much about keyboards, to be frank, I just like that it makes a clung noise and feels really good. If you're interested the model number is R3SD11. A little bit pricy as well, not stupid though. Plus I fell in love with it as soon as I tried it out. I've been thinking about getting one for the last year and a bit. So I think it was worth it. 

It's just too good guys

Anyway, that should be it for today, have a great week. Oh yeah, I'm also back home, so I might want to post a retrospective on the last month. Anyway, 

See ya

I don't know why, it it felt like things were comming

full cycle when I visited this place.