A Collection of Thoughts

 I just had a thought, it came to me when I was thinking while I was thinking about something my mother said, “You’re only young once, so enjoy it.” Something finally clicked with me while I’ve heard that about a million times. I need to stop trying to get through life and just live it. I have spent too much time wanting to do things, or be someone else, and wishing I could have done more in the past. I just need to live in the now.

Coming on this trip has opened up my eyes to many things, though it might be weird having to carry all my belongings that I need for basic living, it has given me much thought. As in this, this is everything that represents me right now. If for instance, you were to create a time capsule of 20-year-old me, this would be a good start. The clothes I wear, shoes, watch, computers, books, headphones, anime crap I like. This is me.

Oh, another thing. While I was on the train yesterday, I was thinking about when I’ll be coming back to Japan. I might want to stay longer too, say six months or even a year. Then that thought led to another thought, What about after that? What if I end up enjoying that time too? What happens if I want to spend more time in Japan? Then I clicked, that’s just living there isn’t it? That’s what people don’t they? People just go places and go things because they like one area, or like one thing. Obviously, many do it for work, without a doubt. And you gotta be a fortunate person to have life turn out the way you kinda wanted it to turn out. Thought that’s super rare, I guess.

Tuesday was my last day of that program, and I decided to walk with my friends to the train station. There was a large group of us, like seven I think. It was a blast, just chatting and dicking around as we do. And I had another thought, I think this might be the last time I get to do something like this. Just going home from school, without having to worry about anything important. All I have to care about is what I’m eating that night. This whole idea extends to the whole program too, from dicking around on bus trips, in class, or together at night in our dorms. It was nice. I hope I can hang out with people like that again. Though I think I will.

Anyway, what was this post? Just a collection of my thoughts from the last few weeks that’s all.

See ya

Sometimes I think I spend too much time thinking