Everyone hates me. I don't know why, I always try so fucking hard and yet everyone still hates me. Is it because I try too hard? Do I say too much? I know there are things that I shouldn't have said but I just can't help myself. I just want people to like me, but I can't let things that I care about be trashed. I care too much. Should I just not care and instead focus on getting more friends? Or even people to like me? Or should I stand to what I believe is right? And I'm not just talking about politics, I'm talking about everything. Everything that I believe in.
For context Ive been left behind by everyone I thought like me here. It was kinda obvious too. But I don't know what I did to everyone to get like this? Whats it something I did, or something said? I know some of them we're talking behind my back, I'm not stupid I saw it. I just don't know what to do. I might just keep to myself again, that usually helps.
I'm just so fucking sick of this. I always try so fucking hard and it always ends like this. I even tell people that I have autism and it doesn't change anything. Noone ever understands me, or trys to. I'm just tired of it. I just hate myself. Why does that happen to me. What can I do to be better. I want to be better. I thought that this would be over after school but it isn't. Why.
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