Everyone hates me

Everyone hates me.  I don't know why, I always try so fucking hard and yet everyone still hates me. Is it because I try too hard? Do I say too much? I know there are things that I shouldn't have said but I just can't help myself. I just want people to like me, but I can't let things that I care about be trashed. I care too much. Should I just not care and instead focus on getting more friends? Or even people to like me? Or should I stand to what I believe is right? And I'm not just talking about politics, I'm talking about everything. Everything that I believe in. 

For context Ive been left behind by everyone I thought like me here. It was kinda obvious too. But I don't know what I did to everyone to get like this? Whats it something I did, or something said? I know some of them we're talking behind my back, I'm not stupid I saw it. I just don't know what to do. I might just keep to myself again, that usually helps.

I'm just so fucking sick of this. I always try so fucking hard and it always ends like this. I even tell people that I have autism and it doesn't change anything. Noone ever understands me, or trys to. I'm just tired of it. I just hate myself. Why does that happen to me. What can I do to be better. I want to be better. I thought that this would be over after school but it isn't. Why.

K-On! Monday 58!

 All right, let's do this. 

Welcome back to K-On! Monday! 

Now I don't have anything new with regards to K-On! So instead I'll show the desk in my dorm.

See, it's Yui!

My desk

This is what I'm using on this trip, kinda cosy I won't lie. I might post the rest of the photos tomorrow, If I'm not lazy. 

Anyway, seeing the date today. You would know that it's the end of the world, well kinda. That's right folks, those morons in America get Trump 2.0 today. Even though I'm Australian, I still have to care. Because what the Americans do, we have to follow them. But let's not talk about the heat death of the human race today, it'll ruin K-On! Monday! Let's instead talk about a little story I have from four years ago today. It's nothing special to be honest, but I got my switch in the summer of 2020/21, and played the crap out of Zelda and the Mario 3d collection. At the same time, I was watching a show called Lupin the 3rd, part II if you're interested. It's also around the same time I started my old blog, if you can find it you could read the posts from back then. Anyway, I decided to stay up on the 20th to watch Biden's inauguration. So in the summer heat, I played Super Mario Sunshine while watching Lupin until 3amish. Then I watched Biden get sworn in. I'll never forget that summer night, I don't know why but it screams childhood to me. Just everything about it, I really miss those days. But I could never imagine being here four years later. What a journey I've had, and I'm really grateful to everyone who has helped me along the way. 

So when I look back on Biden's presidency, while many may have thought it was wasted. I enjoyed it, not just because of what the man achieved, and he did a lot. But what I achieved personally too. I totally evolved as a person, and I'm much happier now than I was then. If I could go back to that summer night and tell myself anything, I'd say that everything was going to be ok. It might just work out. 

Oh, except that dipshit and co is about ruin everything, oh well

See ya

I should really start playing games again

especially with that new switch coming out

K-On! Monday! 57

 HELLO EVERYONE!

Welcome back to another K-On! Monday! Today lets take a look at some more new K-On! merch I got last week!

It's a Key Chain!

Here it is!

I got it from the music store from K-On! I also got another thing I'll show off next week. 

Anyway, I've been really tired recently, I don't know why. I've also been sick again, and that throat pain from last time came back. 

I hope to do more writing this week. I want to get more stuff out, plus go out and explore Japan too. I'm going out right now to watch the new Sonic movie again. Can't wait 

I'll see you all again soon, hopefully

See ya

K-On! Monday! 56

Hey all, 

I'm going to make this short, I'll go into detail tomorrow. For context I had food poisoning last night and spent it in front of a toilet. Plus I have a cold right now, so that's great. It's also really fucking cold here. 

Anyway, I just wanted to show off this new K-On merch I got from akihabara last week. 

It's this cute little drink coaster. There was also a mouse pad but it was too much for me. Especially because it wasn't that big. I've got more cool things too, I can't wait to show them off. Anyway, I might post again tomorrow. 

See ya