About last year

I was thinking about the last eighteen months of my life last night, Paticulay last year. 2023 was a big year for me, I like to think I did a lot of growing up. I remember I wanted to find something, but I didn't know what it was. Was it someone? Something? A reason to do anything. This unknown question haunted me. As weird as it may sound it’s the reason that led me where I am right now. I know I’ve said this a million times before, but the anime and books I read last year meant a lot to me. I know this sounds weird, and probably cringy too, but I kept watching them to find the answer to that question. What did I want? From Suzume and Your Name to Asumanga Daiho, Solanin to Sound! Euphonium, The Wind Rises, the Boy and the Heron, Rascal does not Dream, Bocchi the Rock, Clannad; and Haruhi to K-On! I know how this sounds, but I stopped caring a long time ago. I think I found what I was looking for. I don’t know what it was exactly, but I just felt right. 

I don't know if these shows and books are what caused this realisation, or just getting older, but I like to think they have a huge impact on me. K-On! In particular, I know I ramble on about my love of this show, but I truly cannot understand the impact it had on me. To me, it's what gave me closure on high school, which sounds weird right? But it might actually be true. To think that it's such a simple show about five friends hanging out, but that's what I like about it I guess. Furthermore, The Wind Rises changed me, I don't think I'm the same person I was before I watched it. The film's message of 'your dreams might not come true' is hitting home right now. 

Honestly, if I went on I would be here all night, to wrap up here, these past few weeks have really made me think about my life a lot. It might have been my trip, or because I turned 20, but I think I'm a much better person than I was 18 months ago. Even though he might not agree, or hate who I am now, I think I see things clearer now. Everyone goes through this too, obviously, I'm more mature than basically a high school student. But when I look around me, I'm still glad how this past year and a half have shaped me, and I don't think I would be the person I am today without the stories I've experienced. Have a good night,

See ya

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It's like 11:50 I can't be bothered finding her reading manga