Since we're already halfway through August, I thought it might be time for a total catch-up on the blog. Just me talking through everything, adding/creating more context for these posts. Plus it's a way for me to spill my guts. I'm calling it a State of the Union post, yes copying the Americans, though the name is actually inspired by the State of the blog post from last December. I've also tagged that post as one. I won't do these too often, like I said it's more of a catch-up type thing, a state of things are going, like the American State of the Union address, or King's speech if you're British. Let's get into it.
Firstly I want to talk about my plans for the next five-ish years of my life. Where I last left off was talking about wanting to do language school next year, and then go to a Japanese university. I've since moved on from that idea, it was stupid to begin with, and am now looking at a career path change. I alluded to this Let's chat and Ordinary Life. Right now I'm probably going to TRY and get into engineering. Now this also might be a pipe dream, like Japan, but we'll see. I'm actually quite good at math, much better at it than writing essays. I'm still doing Japanese, and hoping to still do language school, probably later on, maybe in 2026/27. I'll be 21 or 22 then and hopefully more mature by them, hopefully, god.
Next, I'll give a quick run down on why I'm leaving history, and changing my plan. To put it simply, I hate writing essays. Even though I'm getting better, I still don't think I'll be able to do it over four units or as my full-time job. On that note, what can you get with a history degree anyway? Teaching it really, or I could be an English teacher in Japan. So that's it. On top of that arts, degrees cost soooo much, for example, my one history unit last semester cost 2k, that's almost half a private school fee costs, and all for nothing too. it's not too surprising though, the history degree was only a way for me to get my foot in the door. I chose engineering, as I said before, because I'm good with math. Also, I think it might be a good fit for me and my autism. I'm hoping I'll be able to use my Japanese skills with it too, can't think of a specific way right now, but I think you get the picture. We'll just have to see though, still so much to do.
Next is my love/hate relationship with university. That last part kinda hinges on all this working out. Honestly, I really don't get my problem with the place. Like I think I'm enjoying it? But at the same time, I utterly despise the place. For instance last Monday I had this math workshop, and I had to resist basic high school math as a prerequisite, like BASIC stuff. The class just totally sucks, waste of my time. Now don't get me wrong, I'm not trying to be all high and mighty or think I'm better than everyone else, but the way the class is set out sucks. Instead of everyone working on their skills individually, we all get up and do it together on the board. It's not a socialising thing either, for my Japanese or History classes I get it. You need to discuss or practice your skills together. But math is such an individual subject, idk. maybe for the later math courses, but this stuff you should do by yourself. At least it should be optional, I've sat down and started to work, and they made me get up and do it, like why can't we just sit down and work in groups? Like you do in high school? All working individually and then we can help each other from there. Idk, it sounds like I'm a total loser reading this right now hahaha. I think the more pressing issue with university is the loneliness factor. Honestly, it might be one of the most money places I've ever experienced. All the stuff you've probably seen on the internet is true, it sucks. I guess that's why the math class is the way it is. Anyway, university truly is a lonely place. Though I think you have to input in the work if you want friends, which I know is normal for real life, but it takes a bit of adjusting when you're coming from high school.
Lastly, I want to talk about Labor stuff. Now I don't think I've said it here yet, but I'm a member of the Labor Party, and I don't know what to do about it. Recap here, my first semester of uni I put a lot of time into it, but it just didn't feel right. Like I still had this empty feeling in me when I did stuff. The thing is though I didn't want to fully commit to the party because of my own plans. But I just to slowly get away from it all and don't know how I'll do it. The real problem is that I've completely gone cold on them, I feel so bad, they've all been so nice to me, and then I go do this. Look the reason I want to get out of it is because I'm sick of the political game some like to play, and I don't want to get roped into it. Not saying I'm above it, honestly, it's the opposite, I think I'll get into it too much. But that's not the only reason. With my change in direction to engineering, I think it might be better to spend more time on that stuff, and my Japanese, than party affairs. I'll still support the party, but I don't want to get involved right now, that's all. Probably when I'm older though, when I have more things worked out.
Alright, that's it for tonight, covering mostly university stuff, since that is my life right now. For the future of this blog, nothing is changing, the weekly K-On! Monday! posts will still come, that is until I run out of ideas. As for more specific posts, I want to write a post expanding on the loneliness of uni and friendship, might do that this week. I still might do that Japan post, we'll see. Anyway, see you all tomorrow for K-On! Monday 36.
See ya
That was exhausting to write,
don't expect another State of the Union till the end of the year
