To be frank with you, I would have found it impossible to be
in the position today if you asked me last year. Sitting on an aircraft, flying
to Japan for a stint at Kobe University, an international university. Something I
have dreamed about for most of my life. Let alone everything else achieved this
year. I would have laughed at you.
If 2023 was the year I rebuilt myself, started new foundations,
and helped find who I was.
2024 was the year I started pushing
those limits and grew more as a person than I ever have.
While I haven’t achieved everything
I wanted to this year, playing the drums, and involvement with the Labor party,
among other things I can’t really remember. And I did have massive depression
swings during the year. I still never could have hoped for things to turn out
the way they did.
Just looking at the last posts I made during the year, I still managed to do the best I possibly could and
I couldn’t have been proud enough of myself for that. Let's go over the list:
Japanese: I wanted to learn the
language, well that isn’t going to happen in one year; especially with my disability.
But let’s look at the good sides, I ended up passing both my units and more
importantly my exam. That meant a lot to me. I defied my own expectations and
my disability and built the foundations in a tough language. Plus, as I’ve said
like a million times already, I’m going to Japan for god sake. I’m actually
going to study a language overseas, and that at least means something.
Speaking about studying overseas, remember
back in May when I was going to quit University again? instead, I wanted to go
to a language school in Japan? Well, that little crisis in my university career
ended with instead a change to Civil Engineering. Well, I haven’t started yet,
I’m hoping I can mid-next year (2025). But I hope this change will be beneficial
for me in the long run. I was right to question my history degree, it wasn’t the
future I wanted or probably would have worked for me either. I’ve already explained this a million times, so let’s move on.
Party politics, let's make this
short. I want to be more involved, it’s as simple as that. I pushed myself this
year and I think I made good inroads. I have a solid group of friends at the party,
but this still isn’t enough. I want to get more involved, so in the new year, I
will try my hardest and push myself even more.
As for friendships/relationships, it’s
been kinda rough. Speaking strictly of friendships, I don’t think I’ve made
many new connections with people. I do have a few, I won’t lie. But I think I
need to open up to people more often. I only really have one person I do that
with, but I’ve known her for years. And as for relationships, well that was
shit. I don’t want to go into too much detail here, I’m going to go in-depth
into it later. But let’s look at the positives, I went on my first dates this
year. I tried to talk to women for the first time. Plus, I’m going to meet
some more in the new year. So, you know what I’m trying. That’s what matters.
In a world full of incel Andrew Tate dipshits, an autistic kid like me trying
is nice.
Lastly, I just wanted to say I want to watch more anime next year, weird I know. But I don't think I gave myself enough time off this past year. I think that's why I may have fallen into those pits, I lost myself. I said this yesterday so I wanted to say it again. Plus I need to watch more K-On!, oh and that new city anime is coming out next year too.
I think 2025 will be a good year, I'm spending the first chunk of it here in Japan. Then I finally had a direction for myself. Pushing myself towards Engineering and Japanese will be good for me. I'm looking forward to it. Nothing will change here, I promise. My love of K-On! is still as strong as ever.
That it for now, I'll do something tomorrow. Proboably. One last time for this year,
See ya
Writing on the plane was fun, very soothing
